I feel sick to my stomach
and want to claw out my skin;
want to pull out my hair.
It happens every time
and yet I can’t seem to break free
from this rut I am in.
I want to scream,
I want to yell,
I want to cry,
I want to hold you tight and apologise over and over again.
I don’t know why I’m this way,
why I freeze and freak out
when the one thing I want
is to be that close to you.
Just promise me that you won’t give up
on me and that you’ll stick around
while I work this out;
for losing you
would be losing my heart.